Where is my home?

Where is my home?

Sitting behind my laptop, I go inside and sense where I am at emotionally in this moment.
It’s been two months after I set foot on Brazilian soil, 10 weeks after I left home, my home town, my home country. Home? What is “home”. Let me just ponder on this for a moment: in this life, after 60 years of existing in this body, I am beginning to come home. In using the word ‘home’ I do not mean to say I consider Brazil to be my home country. The Netherlands is technically and culturally my home country, but that is also not the place where I am truly at home.
Incidentally, there is a saying in English that goes: “home is where the heart is”, which could be taken to mean that your home is where you feel comfortable, relaxed, and where you are close to the ones you dearly love. And truly, that is a beautiful pointer of the meaning of “home”.

But ….. to me, right now, it is different, it is more like ‘feeling at ease, at home, with not knowing what tomorrow will bring’. It is living from moment to moment, as though living without a past, and without a future. I say “as though”, because, of course, I have a past and I have a certain amount of time of future in this body of mine. Living from moment to moment does not mean that I do not plan for the future, my future and the future of my kids, but …. I do not get attached to the plans for my own future, I can let go of them if they need to change, or existence takes my life on a different path.

5 Replies to “Where is my home?”

  1. Home!! It really is a word that can mean many emotions and memories. Home to me is the connection with the source of Life that make me alive. Being in that moment, on this planet connected with the Infinitely immeasurable. Without barriers, infinitely dissolved in the totality. How relax that can be!!! Just filing at HOME 🌈🌍🌷💖 with my beloved 😃

  2. ‘Home’ for me, means the final state of being at ease with yourself, the other person and whatever situation. Nothing in the whole wide world can harm you any longer, instead, you accept 🙏

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